The different levels of bonds part 1

Good things and bad things, feelings and emotions,success and failure all come our way, the same goes for friendship and love, you dont go looking for friendship or love but they find you somehow. with a person or two for friends,and a single person for love.

But who is the person do you call "friend", is it the person you hang out with, the person who hears you, the person who shares their times with you? or perhaps all of those together, you never know, but for me i think that a friend is someone who'd hear your soul, not your words...just like that friend of mine,=D ignores all my requests really, but when it comes down to when i need him he is there, without a word to say either way,he steps in and stays.... doing nothing but making a statment, i am here beside you, i will be here and all the way to there through the time.

those kind of people fate send to you in small packages, to find that person who you'd call a friend from the heart,they are one or two, five if you are exremely lucky...for the syncronization of souls have it's limits.But what about othe people,what do they count for...those people are companions,comrads,partners that we all cherich.....you see the difference is a friend is a title you take from someone, it's so special...perhaps that is why i hate those who go around saying it in a manner of speaking...like that guy i dont even know and he is talking "mosh keda bardo ya sa7by" translated "isn't that so friend" i mean an insult to the word is just beyond comparison if you really think it through... while companionship,being a comrad is something you give to people...it's the love of your people, or love to the people, weather you know them directly or not,weather you belong to the same college or nationality or religon ..or for some people like me the same race,being a human ...or even being a creature created by Allah (swt).

So it's part giving and part taking, part saving and part spending...part being happy for being sad because it made you realize what is important to you...part being sad for being happy for you couldnt share it with everyone you should've shared it with.... it's all about balancing that big stack of feelings that pile with every breath you take, trying to stay the same through your ups and downs..... keeping those you love close to you but not close enough to suffocate them

So for all my friends out there, you know who you are, you gave me the title...for you who realized my happiness and helped me throug the sadness, well =) simply,without any complex words said, you colored my life, i wont suffocate that color that came from the white light that you shined upon my life,comming from that sun of yours that comes and goes as the clouds come and go..but eventually and certainly is here with me weather my blurry eyes can see it or not that body of mine, that heart of mine and that mind of mine are all feeling you within,dwelling and staying there....... so all of my and my friends... i wont thank you, i will ask God that i'd be the sun in your lives as well....

till part two

poem of the week by one of the most wonderful female poets i ever met .. fatma the muse
to read more visit the blog http://themusefatma.blogspot.com/

أنا عايزة أعرف

بس ليه
أنا جيت وليه
أنا هامشى تانى

ربونى طفلة
ولاقيتنى شابة
عمالة تجرى
هناهو فمكانى

محتارة بين
ضحكة وصرخة
تايهة ما بين
اسمى وزمانى

سمونى فاطمة
ونادونى فاطمة
وتهت لما
لقيونى تانى

مش فاكرة حاجة
من شهر فات
وكأنه مات
مخصوص عشانى

لاأنا عارفة أبكى
ولا عارفة أضحك
ولا حتى أفك
عقدة لسانى

لاأنا مالكى أمسى
ولا شايفة بكرة
ولا عارفة امتى
هيكون أوانى

امتى تجينى
كل الاجابة
اللى توصلنى لكيانى

امتى ألاقى
معنى لحياتى
سر لمماتى
أو عمر تانى؟!

Memorable days

Time passes us by, seconds that turn into hours, and hours that turn into days.days to years and years to a life time.

out of all those timesyou get to see few days that are like no other,a day that probably made you think about your life all over again, or a day that showed you things you never saw before, or simply a day that you were just there,seeing things and listening, not knowing weather you really have the right to be part of that special day or not, weather you were involved or not.

The day before yesterday was such a day,i wont classify that day or what it meant to me in details but rather i will gather up the impressions i've had,give you guys a view about what my eyes could see.

That day i saw a mother, a mother that is so caring and gentle,one that created an atmosphere of kindness around, even though she said little, what she said,what she made us feel was utterly reassuring. I saw a sister who carefully and silently takes care of her sister, one who have a good sense of humor and a good insight, or so i've seen in her....

That day i've seen friends, ^^ one struggling against the flu that almost defeated all his senses (smell,hearing, abit of the tasting and even the eye sight), and the other being a sweet person who we still dnnow had a bigger shock seeing afish jump out of the acquarium than the fish itself or not,and playing with the cutest little beautiful girl called loujy.....

And even if it was only brief,even if it was less than the time i wanted, i've seen someone very special to my heart...a princess of her world

all together, friends,mother,sister and the princess formed that wonderful exsistance...that i'd like to call family, even if the family is still to be revieled, i have to say even that glimpse it was wonderful thing to see, may that family stay together for all time...weather new ppl are added to that family or not, i pray for it's safety and wellfare for all times, may god bless them and make them source of good and light whereever they might be, and make this life good to them,as well as the after life...

thanks for a memorable day, thanks for showing me this family and thank you for that brief,beautiful time

just a small test

Your Birthdate: November 6



You tend to be a the rock in relationships - people depend on you.
Thoughtful and caring, you often put others needs first.
You aren't content to help those you know... you want to give to the world.
An idealist, you strive for positive change and dream about how much better things could be.

Your strength: Your intuition

Your weakness: You put yourself last

Your power color: Rose

Your power symbol: Cloud

Your power month: June

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forgivness

today i will make a special entry, today we talk about forgiveness

In a normal situation dealing with ordinary people, if someone makes a mistake and refuse to apologize that is usually interpreted as being impudent,careless... a disgrace to the humanity manners and consciousness.

however the more time i spend thinking it over the more i realize it's not that simple of a deal,you see there are far too complex layers in the human souls that you probably can't see unless you experience first hand,and even when you do you still wont understand the full extent of where it could lead.

you see, there is another alternative that I've come to see, at least grasp the concept of , forgiveness is not always asked for because it involves two phases that i know of... the first lies in the regret,for a person to regret what they did whatever it may be.

the second phase and the more crucial one is the one directly concerned for forgiveness, basically every human in my opinion have two authorities inside him,a judgmental character,the king and ruler of the body, the one who regards the actions being made, a good king would normally be able to make it so that nothing would go wrong...however some of the time or with some people the king just sits there,a mistake comes to be and yet don't interfere with it at the moment

now comes the judgment time,you stand up before yourself,aware of your mistake,aware of the gravity of your misdeeds,the upcoming step is either forgiveness or the disappearance of that element....and depending on that you either ask others for forgiveness or not, if you cannot forgive your own self not only you wont ask others for forgiveness,you wont accept it either, a lifetime of torment is what awaits that person until someone breaks them free from that cursed world

So what i mean to say is sometimes those who don't ask for forgiveness not only are they human but they are perhaps too much of a human, humanity has many sides of consideration, you have to be aware of your roles and your obligations....but also another side that we sometimes lack is the reminder,that little note reminding us that we are humans,we make mistakes.... but I'd like to think that we hide that note on perpous so as not to keep repeating the same mistake over and over or make countless mistakes claiming... i am human, because humans are not a mistake...they are not supposed to make mistakes frequently, but once in a while they do make mistakes...big ones and small ones, all together as they live.

So what is the cure,are those who've confined their own souls into the dungeons seeking punishment and running away from salvation will last like this, or is there is a way for them to break free, well there is one way that i am aware of...a break point

the simplest way to break such a strong resolve is by proving it wrong, you are not breaking the person though ^^ please no one comes over and says"are you asking us to make them lose faith in what they do", no not at all...but what you need to do is to be strict,it's close to the love of a parent, a parent would discipline his child, even blame them and let them deal with the consequences with their actions directly...but at the end of the day they will go and pay the dues for their children,they will sell what they hold on dear just to get them back....and yet they wont talk to them unless they realize why was their decision bad in the first place

the same way, if that person wont forgive their own souls for their actions,you simply respect that wish for a while,but ignore it...if they don't want to be rescued ^^ rescue them and ignore all their requests regarding not to.....and let them know, even if you don't forgive yourself, even if we wont forgive you,you are still alive and you are among us, never cast away someone you once trusted unless there is no way around it...

well that's it for today,perhaps I'd go on later on,bbye for now everyone =D wonder if anyone ever reads this blog to start with

Song of the week

Today i feature a song that i only listened to a few days ago

name: Garden of everything
artist: Maaya sakamoto


Here you are
Daylight's star
Made out of miracles

Perfection
Of your own
You Alone
O so incredible

Each atom
Sing to me
"Set me free
From chains of the physical"

O free me, O free me

The mirror melts
I'm somewhere else
Inside eternity

Where you on
Outstretched wings
Sing within
The Garden of Everything

Where memories
Call to me
Backward dreams?
Or phantom reality?

Call to me, they call to me

And so here we are
Lovers of Lost Dimensions
Burning supernovas of all sound and sight
Every touch, a temptation
And for every sense, a sensation

Eyes of pure
Deep azure
Quite unbelievable

The sun's daughter
You've been made
Not to fade
Quite inconceivable

Each atom sings to me
"Set me free
From chains of the physical"

O free me O free me

A love like ours
A starry flower
Through seasons and centuries

As rivers reach the sea
You'll reach me
With songs of your symmetry

A small boat
There will float
To far off coasts
The Isle of Infinity

Come with me. O come with me

Here we'll see
Love's lost tree
Made out of miracles

Emotions, crystal leaves
To cover me
And you in eternity

Each atom sing to us
Through the blood
"Love is a miracle"

Sings softly, it sing softly

And so here we are
Lovers of Lost Dimensions
Burning supernovas of all sound and sight
Every touch, a temptation
And for every sense, a sensation

And so here we are
Twin stars of brilliant brightness
Lanterns lit by life for all the depths of night
And every day will return us
To arms of the ever eternal

And so here we are
So far from earthly orbits
Burning supernovas of all sound and sight
Where every day will return us
To arms of the ever eternal

To my princess

Out of barriers of time and space, a world of visions and dreams exsisted.
far beyond the drifted lands and this forgotten place,
it was the time when i first met you under those azure skies.
it was more than what my eyes could see,more than what my heart could hear
i heared my mind whispering smoothly in my eyes dont blink,even if you have to tear
in your calm setteled light i walked
through it ipassed through times of the past,present and future
down to the world that people's spirits once resided in
But fate coerced my path and iwas lost in a sea of thought
wondering if my path shall ever cross yours
and so alone i came to be
for a whole year wondering,will my path end
or will i travel through the barriers or time and place,to find you one more time


And so as i kneeled before my own pride,swearing my illegance to what i belive in,I asked Allah to be with you
I held in my right hand putting it over where my heart should be

So once again god gave me more than i expected, i was given a ticket back in time while i was in the present, and in a world based on reality i saw beyond the horizon a path to take, i saw the shining smile before me.

i thanked you god and wish you'd make my dreams come true
please accept my plea
let the lands of fantasy worlds be driven by forces of nature to reality
and may the collapse of the barriers of time be my proof,not to the world but for this one who resides in my heart, let me be strong and saine before she drives me insaine ^^


........ the last part concerning me being insaine is not true =) i belive that sainity is what lies ahead, calmness and a world based on wisdom will come to be

thank you for reading

A moment in time

Moments that change your whole life, something so remarkable that happens before you realize it....such moment carry beauty beyond all reason. it's a pure moment called fate

So many times we've all questioned the nature of fate, weather fate really is something predecided or is it something that is unraveled as we speak, as we move or run or work.. and so the answer to that question creates the diversity in our actions... those who belive that fate is something predetermined will not be intemidated by the fears of life, even if that might cause some to make thier hearts hibernate,giving up hope and saying that is our fate.... and those who belive that fate is something to be change will be on the versatile side of life,defying mystery and looking beyond logic, choosing to defy the fear of the unknown future,knowing they might lose everything in a cheer moment, a single moment that they want to call fate.

but i'd like to think that fate is a bit of both, as much as i think that fate is not something predetermined, yet its known to god...perhaps its best put that if fate was that a certain event would happen then its not the event that moves my actions but my actions that lead to that incident eventually. it's the difference between the creation and the creator.i am not responsible for everything that happens to me but on a greater scale every breath i take, every word i type, every move and look i make end up causing everything in this world revolve in a greater cycle, so it's the work earning the fate that you need, and at the same time understanding that the outcome is not yours, the future is in the hands of god, the past is in the grasp of time and the present is yours to manipulate and to decide...it's your asset and your ally
but beware that the present will soon be past, and the past is in the grasp of time so enjoy your present... thank god for things he gave you

i myself thank god because i was able to see so many wonders in my life, and i was blessed with many things. but most of all i thank god for meeting the person i want to spend the rest of my life with

so thank you god for your blessings,thank you for my exsistance,ignorance sometimes and thank you god for giving me that person

song of the week... strangers by raj ramayya

this is one of my favorite songs of all times, just wonderful



We've seen the end of a mystic land so close it meets the parting sun.
We've shared the thoughts that two could share, we feel the truth, magic that we send...

Searching for something new
Isle of Gold in flowers bloom

We've heard a kind of paradise beyond the desert's dunes.
We've walked the earth in solitude, so cold we need the warmth of sun.
We've lived the life that we could live, we see the truth magic that begins...

Searching for something new
Isle of Gold in flowers bloom

We've found a kind of paradise, below a sky so new.
We've weaved a web of mystery so wide, we need the light of day.
We've worn the cloak of secret lives, we've seen the truth, magic that we send...

Searching for something new
Isle of Gold in flowers bloom

so when will it end?
so when, when will we meet, my friend?